Confused by the title ? Haha, well this journal is actually going to be talking about something that I realized and want to share with some artist who might be facing the same problem as I have. First I want to post this REALLY awesome journal that made me realize my problem=

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You don't have to read the links (but they're REALLY inspirational, so take a read at them sometime :3 ), but read the journal itself for a summary of what it basically talks about.

Done? Okie Dokie~

So yeah… ._____. I guess that's my biggest problem in art. I study all day, erry day (24/7). I study tutorials, do LOTS of figure drawing, and read lots and lots of art and anatomy books (to the point where my wrists hurt… and I'm not joking LOL), but it's not benefiting me. Why wouldn't it with all the intense studying I do? Because, while I am studying hard, I'm not actually willing to draw for myself and I was afraid to make mistakes… so all that studying didn't benefit me one bit.

Now don't get me wrong. Studying and practicing is VERY important D: , but if you only do that and don't draw for fun, then… it's pretty much useless :I . For example, just a few days ago I tried to do a simple sketch of Xiaoyou and Panda from the Tekken series (+ some other sketches), but… I had nothing but a blank sheet of paper. I had the ideas all set in my head, but… I have no idea what to do to get it on paper :< . That, and I was so afraid of making mistakes that I wasn't going anywhere at all. I made constant mistakes, and was erasing and just building up stress on trying to make "perfect" artwork (and for a sketch… wow, Alpha… wow >x>;; ). I got too worried about having a bad sketch to the point where I just gave up and just did something else.

So that's where my problem lies… I'm not willing to make mistakes (or have bad artwork). It's a very bad habit to have, because you aren't going to get anywhere with drawing if you aren't willing to making mistakes and draw for yourself… and for fun C: ! Another example I can use was when my friend was asking me to draw something for her. She's planning on making a comic book, and she asked me for help on doing the artwork for her story. At that time, my confidence in my art was much worse than it was now, and… let's just say I'm surprised she let me off the hook .///. (and still lets me help with the story in terms of writing the script and all). While I did help her with some artwork, I couldn't do most of it because I was so afraid of letting her down and not willing to screw up. That lead me to not do anything at all, and I really let her down <=/ . Well, I'm not sure if she felt like that (because she's really cool with me and all), but I sure did let myself down… v__v It's kinda funny, ya know? She thought my artwork was so wonderful and EPIX that she thought my artwork could help her with the graphic novel, yet… I didn't like my own art enough to believe her. You're a very dumb poop head <x<;; .

XDDD  But yeah, you see my point, right? I mean, a lot of people can say their own artwork sucks and all, and I understand that! We call have that moment (and not only in art, either), but if you want to improve and become better, you have to pull yourself out of the rut and just keep drawing anyway. We all strive to be good artist, but we aren't all perfect. We have our good drawings, and we have our bad ones. I can't tell you how many times where I look at other deviant's galleries and I see how they post many of their artworks (from good ones to bad ones), and they have a ton of artwork with shows how much they have gone. Then I look at mine and… I'm just amazed (and slightly embarrassed) of how little I posted in the last 3 years here. My gallery does show some improvement I guess, but not the the point where it's amazing. i only say this because of how little I posted, and I could have posted so much more DX (but I was a coward :< ).

The point I'm trying to make here is… don't be afraid to draw and fail. Draw for fun, and don't be afraid to make bad artwork. It is important to learn and study AND practice from books and tutorials, but in the end, picking up a pencil and just drawing is all that matters. I think after reading all those inspirational links, I have to say that I'm going to do that for now on. Now I'm not going to say I will be posting stuff here everyday (because of my surprising business these days ), but I'm just doing to do just that. Draw no matter what, and I think you all who are having this problem of fearing to make mistakes should do that same .




I'll be going now, but I hope this journal was helpful (or made sense… because I'm staying up pretty late to do this LOL XD; ). Until then, see you all later, and hope you all have a great day (or a good night )!